I found someone I love :) LOL :P

Right now let me post about it :P  hehehe
Yup, Like the title, I find someone I like.


The Initial A, he's very kind.
I really like to see him, just like to see him, not love.


I don't want to fall in love with him because I knew wouldn't be possible. ahaha
Although he seems arrogant, but he's actually kind.


Is it possible to meet someone like him?
Someone like him are very rare.


Is this God's plan? May be? yes or no? Ahahaha! : D
If one day I could meet him again, It becomes a fun thing for me (maybe)


Thank God for all the plans
I know all of your plans will work out perfectly in the end


Continue to bless, help, and God protect us. Look us, watch us every second.
Admonish us if we make a mistake.
Give us punishment if make sth that's not good.


Lord, we always believe in you.
Thank God, Amin.

I love you God, much love for you ^^

Today, I just finished a retreat in Lautan Berlian, Cipanas, Puncak.
During the 4 days 3 nights, it's affecting for me.
I'm very grateful, I can be allowed and can join it.
Then, I thought, 'Am I among those who elected to attend the event by the Lord? " my heart said.
If yes, I'm very grateful.
In 4 days, I really learned a lot.
I've a lot of listening to the stories, statements, and the words of God.
From there I felt sth very warm, very protective me.
Indeed, sometimes the times when my sisters her lecture committee, sometimes I feel very sleepy
But I forced myself to wake up. So tht I could hear the words of my sisters as well.
That's where I learned many things tht r very influential on me bcause God exists.
God is watching us, God help us, God is there for us whenever it is
Honestly, first, sometimes I just call the name of the Lord whn I was scared and needed help
But often the Lord heard my prayer and help me.
Why am I so cruel? Why all ths time I was unfaithful to him?
It was there I began to feel remorse, I feel very guilty.
But that's where I can get a lot of lessons tht now, starting today, I did have to change.

I said to myself, "Frm now on, I need to change! I must be faithful to God, not just whn I needed his help." I told myself.
Thn on the third night, I prayed for by his older sister named Messa committee (if it's true)
There she put her hand on my shoulder and prayed for me.
Somehow, I felt a sadness, I cried, feeling there's sth behind me with a tight hug, but it's not so pronounced.
But my body feels warm and comfortable.
There I regained consciousness, I shouldn't like ths constantly.
So I made a decision for chance.
Lord, continue to guide me for his servant, it's me thy followers, keep sending me Your glory, continue to protect me, continue to bless me in times of any kind.
I'll keep fighting until I finish my duty to spread the word of thy Lord.
Here I am, send me.
Please help me God if I fell, wake me, I was restored.
Thank God for everything you've given me.
Without you, I am nothing. But because there's a God, I can stand up to ths moment.
Thank God, I'll continue to be loyal to you
Amin. :)

I'm sorry Dad..

Today, I woke up too late to go to the course.
My father, too late to get up early to take me to the course
I wake up faster from it even though the time is low
I take a bath, maybe I take a shower too long, so it's take a lot of time.
Then my father got up, and he says it's already 8:30
I really panicked but it was my fault I was relaxing in the bathroom before I know what time.
My father was angry with me, and I was silent because this is all my fault.
Then he began to accuse my mother did not wake me.
now I starting to think, in fact he did not need her too right?
He also woke me up, but he wake up late too.
I was also wrong, I already grow up but I still wake up late and still rely on other people.
I though I have set an alarm clock.
Then, he began again to continue his chatter to me.
One of them "she was not responsible for her vocal lessons, she, herself who asked for his own irresponsible"
Then it really hurt me for a moment, I thought to myself again.
I said in my heart: "Why am I so stupid? Why am I so irresponsible? Why did not discipline? Why I can only rely on other people? Why am I so useless? Why do I always make people around me to be angry and disappointed? I was destined to like this? why? "
Perhaps this is a test from God for me.

I'm afraid, because his own words, in the heart ..
That is not to be a motivation for me, but it's actually a bad suggestion for me.
I'm sorry, so sorry.


Then, I think again, did he think what I felt when he say that?
Does he regret having said that it aimed to me?


It became a puzzle to me ...

Tanggal 25 mulai mendekat ~ :3
3 hari lagi !! jadi, sekalian gue curhat sebelum ga bertemu selama 4 hari nanti ><
tepatnya sih tgl 28 baru balik :D
Gue sempet bingung mau bawa baju apa..
So, gue tentuin aja dari hari ini biar semuanya udah gampang
Gue bakalan bawa 2 tas, satu tas kecil, satu tas besar.
Nih tas nya  yang bakalan gue bawa pas retret nanti :D :3 xD

tas yg bakalan gue bawa

topi yg bakal (mungkin) gue bawa nnti

n

Barang yang biasa dibawa untuk menginap

Cewek : 

 Misalnya : Menginap 4 hari 3 malam

-Baju ( 4 )

-Celana ( 3 )

-Bra ( 3 )

-Celana dalam (4)

-Jaket / Syal ( 1 )

-Topi / Payung ( 1 )

-Rexona ( 1 )

-Pembalut (jika sedang haid) bawa ( 7 )

- Tissue ( 2 )

-Saputangan ( 1 )

-Sandal ( 1 )

-Sepatu ( 1 )

-Autan ( 2 )

-Legging warna kulit ( 1 )

-Sisir ( 2 )

-Peralatan untuk mandi ( shampo, sikat gigi, pasta gigi, sabun )

-Handuk ( 1 )

-Kipas ( 1 )

-Handyplas, obat, minyak angin

-Kantong plastik ( 3 )

Sisanya bebas membawa barang yang diinginkan sesuai dengan perintah

God always looks every second we did

Nah, kalau di post yang ini, gue mau curhat, akakkakwkakw !

Tanggal 25 pada hari Senin bulan Juni tahun  2012 #apabanget wkwkkw

Gue bakalan pergi ke Puncak mengikuti retret yang diselenggarakan dari Gereja Bethel Indonesia (GBI) *bener ga kepanjangan nya?* #PLAKKKKK

Gue sempet khawatir tadinya, udah dag-dig-dug ga bakalan dibolehin ikut acara tersebut. 

Gua udah galau duluan sebelum nanya ke orangtua gue. Soal nya firasat gue pasti ga bakalan dibolehin pergi. Apalagi nginep TT_______TTa

Nah ternyata pas pertama kali gue nanya, gue tanya nya ke mama gue.

Gue ngomong kayak gini :

Gue : "Ma, boleh ga gua pergi ikut retret sama temen di Puncak? 4 hari 3 malem ma. 100 ribu aja :O Gua udah daftar juga ma. Kalau tarik nama dari daftar juga mesti bayar denda *alasan gue* *Maaf ya ma :'( "

Mama gue : "Siapa suruh udah asal daftar, minta ijin aja belum kok. Itu kan acara Gereja, ngepain kamu ikut?" katanya.

Gue : "Yah maa.. Tadinya gua juga mikir kayak gitu. Tapi pas gua nanya ngga terlalu ke arahin ke Gereja nya. Boleh ya ma? :("

 

Kemudian emak gua hanya diam dan nyuruh gue makan dulu.

Pas gue ngambil makanan, mama gue ternyata pergi entah kemana.

Nah di kesempatan itu, gue nyuri kesempatan sekalian buat minta ijin bapak gue.

Kemudian gue pergi ke kamar nyamperin bapak gue buat ngomong dan minta ijin.

Gini percakapannya :

Gue : "Pa, gua tanggal 25 mau pergi retret ke Puncak sama temen-temen. Boleh ya?"

Bapak Gue : "Berapa harganya? Sama siapa? Naik apa? Kumpul dimana? Jam berapa? Berapa hari? Siapa yang buat?" dan lain-lain.

Gue : "100 ribu pa. Sama Mitha sama Erica sama hanny sama tasya sama vero sama ikana. Naik bus. Kumpulnya belum tahu. Jam nya mungkin pagi. 4 hari 3 malem. dari GBI, gereja yg di GM." *Padahal si Hanny sama Tasya gatau jadi atau enggak, gatau GBI nya sama atau engga* *Maaf ya pa udah bohong --> dalem hati gue* *sumpah dosa banget ya gue :'(*

Bapak Gue : "Oh yaudah, minta nomor telepon temen lu, entar konfirmasi bener atau engga. Entar kasi tau mami biar mami telepon ke temen lu tanyain ini itu."

Gue : "Tadi pas sebelum makan udah nanya ke mami, terus mami cuma diem, belum jawab. Terus pas mau nanya lagi mami pergi."

Bapak gue : "Yaudah entar pas dia pulang nanya lagi aja."

Gue : "Pa, sebenernya sih harganya 200 ribu. Cuma di dompet gua masih ada... jadi minta 100 aja.. :O" *padahal masih kurang 20 rb soalnya didompet baru 80 ribu*

Bapak gue : "Emang di dompet lu sisa berapa? 100 ribu lebih ya?"

Gue : "Bukan, engga nyampe..." *hmmm, gue udah cemas disini*

Bapak gue : "Terus ? Terus sisa berapa?"

Gue : *dengan ragu-ragu* "Sisa 80 ribu berapa gitu pa ... terakhir kali nge-cek sih segitu.." *ujung-ujungnya jujur juga* ehehehe

Bapak gue : "Yaudah, entar papi kasih lu 200 langsung gapapa. Entar tanya mami dulu ya tapi. Liat boleh atau ga boleh."

---------------------------------------------------Pas mama gue pulang---------------------------------------------

gue melas-melas ke mama gue buat diijinin, emak gue tetep ga bolehin, dia marahin gue karena dia dibohongin sama gue. di tau yang sebenernya dari bapak gue. Jadi gue diem dengerin ocehannya, karena emang gue yang salah. Kemudian setelah dia selesai ngomong, giliran gue yang ngoceh. Yaitu :

"Kan gua juga udah lama ga ke Puncak ma. Kemaren-kemaren temen gua ajak gua pergi jalan-jalan mami ga bolehin gua nurut ga pergi. Mami bilang gua tiap kali diajak jalan pasti langsung nurut dan mau pergi. Engga ma, engga. Kata siapa yang bilang kayak gitu? Waktu itu juga ga boleh, waktu itunya lagi temen ajak juga ga boleh gua nurut. Kalau gua apa-apa mau pasti gua udah maksa mami buat ijinin gua pergi ikut temen jalan-jalan. Lagian itu retret juga tujuannya bagus kok !" sambil nahan nangis *eh keluar* 

Nah, emak gue kayaknya ... *sket met* . Kemudian emak gue masih ga menaruh kepercayaan nya kepada gue sampai sekarang. Mungkin karena dulu gue sering nakal dan suka bohong sama dia, tapi sekarang... engga ma, engga. Sekarang walaupun ada bohong-bohong nya sedikit #PLAK tapi lebih banyak yang bener kok. Kejadian ujung-ujung nya juga selalu sama persis dan memang itu yang bakal gua lakukan dan bakalan terjadi.

Kapan mami bisa percaya sama gue ma? Kapan? itu kata hati gue... sampai sekarang.

Kemudian ketika emak gue masih ga percaya sama gue, mama gue minta nomor telepon temen gue yang bakalan ikut retret tersebut.

Nah, disaat itu gue ngasih nomor Mitha. Kemudian gue sambungin (gue teleponin)

Gue loud speaker saat itu biar gue bisa denger. 

Nah habis udah teleponin temen gue yang bakalan ikut retret itu juga, mama gue baru percaya.

Tapi yang bikin hati gue tuh bener" sakit ya karena "Kenapa? Kenapa emak gue lebih percaya orang lain dibandingkan gue sendiri?"

Gue rasa cuma waktu yang bisa menjawab semua itu..

NB : Hmmm.. setelah lo pada baca ini.. Gue rasa mungkin lo pada jangan kayak gue yang kayak gini. Gue bohong sama mama gue walaupun sedikit tetapi malah akan berakibat gitu. Mening lo ngomong terus terang apa adanya jujur sama orangtua lo. Maka yang akan terjadi sama lo tuh kebaikan yang bakalan dateng ke elo. Thanks semua udah read post gue yang ini ya ! ^^

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Retreat ! Want to join us ? :)

English :


Hi all ! We meet again :3 Nyeeheheheheh ~
In this time, maybe I wanna post or promote something  :P
On 25 June , yeah this month, GBI make a event. That's retreat !
Feel free to join ! For Jakarta, Indonesia :)

This is very interesting right ? !
4 day ! :D At Lautan Berlian, Cipanas, Puncak by De Flow Community


Let's join us ! Feel free for ask ! :)
NB : Just for adult / teenager !




Indonesia :

Halo semuanya ! Kita bertemu lagi di blog ini :)
Di post kali ini, saya ini mem-promosikan sesuatu :P
Tgl 25 , ya tepatnya jatuh pada hari Senin dibulan ini, Gereja GBI mengadakan suatu acara.
Yaituuuu ..... JENG JENNGGGG !! Retrettt !
Acara ini menarik loh :3
Spanduk nya seperti yang diatas itu. :D
Kita akan menginap selama 4 hari 3 malam !
Lokasinya di Lautan Berlian, Cipanas, Puncak.
Acara tersebut diselenggarakan oleh De Flow Community
Yang tau Gereja ini boleh nih ikut dong ! ;))
Salah satu dari acara tersebut / yang akan dilakukan, yaitu :
-Api unggun
-Games
- 1 hari makan 3 kali, waktu snack 2 kali
Dan lain-lain :D :) !
Boleh nih ditanya-tanya dulu lebih lengkapnya :) 


NB : Saya memang bukan anggota Gereja GBI. Saya bukan agama Katolik ataupun Kristen. Saya hanya turut mengikuti dan berpatisipasi dalam kegiatan ini. 


See ya there GUYS ! :)) (y)

what do you want from me? I'll unfriend u !

When I'm falling and I need someone to help me. Where are you?
When I need someone to share, where are you?
While I was crying, need someone to cheer me up and encourage me,where are you?
When I need a friend to support me, where are you?
When I hurt, I need someone to heal me, where are you?

Where are the one I know?
While you are with your friends, where are my position ?
What do you think about me?
Am I your servant? Am I your porter?
Do you know how I feel in that position?
I tried to be the best for you
But what do you do to me?

You think I'm like a doll, and even rubbish, maybe
YES ! doll .. You play me if you want me
RUBBISH .. you do not care about me when you with your friends
Now I'm tired of everything
I would not longer be a servant
Because...  now I know, because I've been tricked by you
You search me only when you need or want something from me
but if you're do not need me, you think there is no me
Remember, I'm no dummy, I'm not an inanimate object
I have a heart, I can feel hurt, I'm offended by you
If I were a doll, take care of me, mercy on me

you can put me, but...  Please, do not remove me
But I could feel happy, because you gave me a experience

Thank you for everything
Thank you to all your treatments 
thank you for all your bad intentions
thank you for all the things that you give me

Without it, I will not be aware ..
Thank you my friend