I'm sorry Dad..

Today, I woke up too late to go to the course.
My father, too late to get up early to take me to the course
I wake up faster from it even though the time is low
I take a bath, maybe I take a shower too long, so it's take a lot of time.
Then my father got up, and he says it's already 8:30
I really panicked but it was my fault I was relaxing in the bathroom before I know what time.
My father was angry with me, and I was silent because this is all my fault.
Then he began to accuse my mother did not wake me.
now I starting to think, in fact he did not need her too right?
He also woke me up, but he wake up late too.
I was also wrong, I already grow up but I still wake up late and still rely on other people.
I though I have set an alarm clock.
Then, he began again to continue his chatter to me.
One of them "she was not responsible for her vocal lessons, she, herself who asked for his own irresponsible"
Then it really hurt me for a moment, I thought to myself again.
I said in my heart: "Why am I so stupid? Why am I so irresponsible? Why did not discipline? Why I can only rely on other people? Why am I so useless? Why do I always make people around me to be angry and disappointed? I was destined to like this? why? "
Perhaps this is a test from God for me.

I'm afraid, because his own words, in the heart ..
That is not to be a motivation for me, but it's actually a bad suggestion for me.
I'm sorry, so sorry.


Then, I think again, did he think what I felt when he say that?
Does he regret having said that it aimed to me?


It became a puzzle to me ...