I love you God, much love for you ^^

Today, I just finished a retreat in Lautan Berlian, Cipanas, Puncak.
During the 4 days 3 nights, it's affecting for me.
I'm very grateful, I can be allowed and can join it.
Then, I thought, 'Am I among those who elected to attend the event by the Lord? " my heart said.
If yes, I'm very grateful.
In 4 days, I really learned a lot.
I've a lot of listening to the stories, statements, and the words of God.
From there I felt sth very warm, very protective me.
Indeed, sometimes the times when my sisters her lecture committee, sometimes I feel very sleepy
But I forced myself to wake up. So tht I could hear the words of my sisters as well.
That's where I learned many things tht r very influential on me bcause God exists.
God is watching us, God help us, God is there for us whenever it is
Honestly, first, sometimes I just call the name of the Lord whn I was scared and needed help
But often the Lord heard my prayer and help me.
Why am I so cruel? Why all ths time I was unfaithful to him?
It was there I began to feel remorse, I feel very guilty.
But that's where I can get a lot of lessons tht now, starting today, I did have to change.

I said to myself, "Frm now on, I need to change! I must be faithful to God, not just whn I needed his help." I told myself.
Thn on the third night, I prayed for by his older sister named Messa committee (if it's true)
There she put her hand on my shoulder and prayed for me.
Somehow, I felt a sadness, I cried, feeling there's sth behind me with a tight hug, but it's not so pronounced.
But my body feels warm and comfortable.
There I regained consciousness, I shouldn't like ths constantly.
So I made a decision for chance.
Lord, continue to guide me for his servant, it's me thy followers, keep sending me Your glory, continue to protect me, continue to bless me in times of any kind.
I'll keep fighting until I finish my duty to spread the word of thy Lord.
Here I am, send me.
Please help me God if I fell, wake me, I was restored.
Thank God for everything you've given me.
Without you, I am nothing. But because there's a God, I can stand up to ths moment.
Thank God, I'll continue to be loyal to you
Amin. :)